This past week wasn't as exciting or as fruitful as the previous weeks. No reunions with hot, sexy boyfriends. No trips to Philadelphia or DC or Maryland or Virginia. But, I did get my promotion and a raise! That will help out a lot until my boyfriend finds a job. I really am not worried about money while we are living together. It'll be so great getting to wake up to his beautiful face everyday and having his lovely blue eyes the last thing I see at night! It'll be awesome getting to see him so much and be with him so much! I know that we won't get to see each other much more than we were before, but it'll still be so wonderful!
In about 18 days, 17 hours, and 21 minutes I will be holding him again, kissing him again, laughing and/or crying with him again... It will be fabulous! Simply fabulous!
Monday, July 19, 2010
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Trip
Sometimes I don't think anyone reads my blog anyway, so why bother writing it, but some other times I think that I really write it more for me and my fiance. That's right, you heard me correctly, I am officially engaged to wed my beloved! I really am so excited about that!
As I had previously mentioned, I was going back East to visit my boyfriend for the 4th of July, which was a total blast by the way, and we had talked about whether or not to just get engaged before. We had decided to get married long ago, so getting engaged was really more of a formality, but I really, really wanted to do it!
Shortly after I got out there I was really anxious to just get it over with and I just kind of brought the rings out and was like, "OK, so, here's your ring," and that was it. While I was out there we took a day trip out to Philadelphia and we got back really late. I wanted to take a shower because we had been walking around all day in the hot sun and I was feeling kind of gross. While we were getting ready to shower I asked if I could see his ring and then got down on one knee and proposed to him. I don't think he suspected it, but I could tell that me doing it proper made him happy.
We won't get married for at least a year and he promised me that it would be no longer than two years, but we are going to be moving in together in September, so waiting to get married won't be so bad...I don't think.
While I was out there we went to VA, PA, MD, DC and I think that's it, but I had a whole lot of fun! The only bad part was that I got blisters on my feet and my legs really, really started hurting from all of that walking! The first day we went to the Holocaust Museum (which was very sad and made you almost sick that people could put such little value on the lives of others), we toured the Capitol (lots of fun and very informative, it was pretty interesting and lots of cool art and architecture), and we went to the National Art Gallery (it's part of the Smithsonian, lots of beautiful art and I was surprised to see works from some of the most famous artist: van Gogh, Monet, Gauguin, Picasso, just to name a few), then we had a nice picnic with friends. It turned out to be a wonderful start to my vacation! Actually, now that I think about it, some of that stuff might have been done on Friday...
Saturday we went to Philadelphia and that was really fun too! I got an authentic cheese steak from Pat's, we took a nap in a park, we went to the US Mint and took a tour (which was kind of boring since it was Saturday and no one was working, so we didn't get to watch any money being made), we went to Liberty Hall too, but they had already given out all of the tickets for the day, so we couldn't go inside... We ended the day by going to an all you can eat ice cream fund-raiser for a local hospital! The idea was that you pay $5 for admission and then you get all of the ice cream you can eat! I don't think I ate too much. And it was a madhouse in there too!
Sunday we went to church with a friend (we were a little bit late), then went to this nice dim sum place in Maryland (it was so yummy!). After that we went to the National Cathedral (which was such a masterpiece of architecture! But, there was some kind of concert going on, so I couldn't take pictures of the inside). We finished the night by going to Arlington, VA to watch the fireworks! It was a great show and it was really cool because you could look down and see a bunch of other fireworks shows going on too (it was a once in a lifetime experience).
The next day my baby and I took a cab to the airport and I had to say good bye again :'( But, this time it is only for about 5 weeks (half as long as I have already been away from his handsome face). I only have to wait 27 more days before I get to wrap my arms around his next and kiss him all over his face and I CAN'T WAIT!!!
As I had previously mentioned, I was going back East to visit my boyfriend for the 4th of July, which was a total blast by the way, and we had talked about whether or not to just get engaged before. We had decided to get married long ago, so getting engaged was really more of a formality, but I really, really wanted to do it!
Shortly after I got out there I was really anxious to just get it over with and I just kind of brought the rings out and was like, "OK, so, here's your ring," and that was it. While I was out there we took a day trip out to Philadelphia and we got back really late. I wanted to take a shower because we had been walking around all day in the hot sun and I was feeling kind of gross. While we were getting ready to shower I asked if I could see his ring and then got down on one knee and proposed to him. I don't think he suspected it, but I could tell that me doing it proper made him happy.
We won't get married for at least a year and he promised me that it would be no longer than two years, but we are going to be moving in together in September, so waiting to get married won't be so bad...I don't think.
While I was out there we went to VA, PA, MD, DC and I think that's it, but I had a whole lot of fun! The only bad part was that I got blisters on my feet and my legs really, really started hurting from all of that walking! The first day we went to the Holocaust Museum (which was very sad and made you almost sick that people could put such little value on the lives of others), we toured the Capitol (lots of fun and very informative, it was pretty interesting and lots of cool art and architecture), and we went to the National Art Gallery (it's part of the Smithsonian, lots of beautiful art and I was surprised to see works from some of the most famous artist: van Gogh, Monet, Gauguin, Picasso, just to name a few), then we had a nice picnic with friends. It turned out to be a wonderful start to my vacation! Actually, now that I think about it, some of that stuff might have been done on Friday...
Saturday we went to Philadelphia and that was really fun too! I got an authentic cheese steak from Pat's, we took a nap in a park, we went to the US Mint and took a tour (which was kind of boring since it was Saturday and no one was working, so we didn't get to watch any money being made), we went to Liberty Hall too, but they had already given out all of the tickets for the day, so we couldn't go inside... We ended the day by going to an all you can eat ice cream fund-raiser for a local hospital! The idea was that you pay $5 for admission and then you get all of the ice cream you can eat! I don't think I ate too much. And it was a madhouse in there too!
Sunday we went to church with a friend (we were a little bit late), then went to this nice dim sum place in Maryland (it was so yummy!). After that we went to the National Cathedral (which was such a masterpiece of architecture! But, there was some kind of concert going on, so I couldn't take pictures of the inside). We finished the night by going to Arlington, VA to watch the fireworks! It was a great show and it was really cool because you could look down and see a bunch of other fireworks shows going on too (it was a once in a lifetime experience).
The next day my baby and I took a cab to the airport and I had to say good bye again :'( But, this time it is only for about 5 weeks (half as long as I have already been away from his handsome face). I only have to wait 27 more days before I get to wrap my arms around his next and kiss him all over his face and I CAN'T WAIT!!!
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
so soon I can...taste it?
So, I get to fly out east and see my boyfriend in about a week! I AM SO FREAKIN' EXCITED!!! We already have some really fun things planned to do. But, what I am really excited about is getting to hold him again, see him again, kiss him again, talk to him face to face again, touch him again, and, yes, make love to him again! Lately, I have been missing him ALOT! There have been times lately where I wish he were he so he could hold me and make me feel better and make me feel like everything was ok or would be ok.
Today I said something stupid. I was being petty and said that he didn't care about me... I know for a fact that he does care about me, so why would I say that he doesn't? That is a very good question. I don't have a good answer for you. We talked it out and are back on the same picture, but I still feel that I don't deserve him. He is too good for me! Too kind, too loving, too patient, too understanding, too good! He thinks the same about me, so I guess we will have to try to convince the other person of what we see in each other :)
Today I said something stupid. I was being petty and said that he didn't care about me... I know for a fact that he does care about me, so why would I say that he doesn't? That is a very good question. I don't have a good answer for you. We talked it out and are back on the same picture, but I still feel that I don't deserve him. He is too good for me! Too kind, too loving, too patient, too understanding, too good! He thinks the same about me, so I guess we will have to try to convince the other person of what we see in each other :)
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Desperately wanting...
Somehow I got off schedule with my blogging and I haven't be able to get back to it. I really don't care because I don't think anyone reads my blogs except for the person that they are intended for, and I don't even think that he reads them as much as I would like for him to. And he hardly ever leaves comments...that's a hint, honey- just in case you didn't figure that out.
Over the past few days I have been missing my boyfriend a lot more than normal. We talked yesterday for a bit and I started crying, which I haven't done with him for a long time. It has just been so hard for me being away from him and in some ways I hope he knows, but in other ways I hope he doesn't know- he tends to worry about me when he knows I'm sad and missing him or when I'm sad and he can't be with me, both of which are occurring right now. I can't wait until I get to be with him again in a few weeks! But, I still absolutely HATE, HATE, HATE, that our separation is still only half over! I still have to wait until August 7th until I will get to be with him for more than a few days... IT SUCKS! Don't get me wrong, it will be so wonderful to get to see him in a few weeks, but it's only going to be for 4 days and then I have to say good bye to him again for 4 weeks! I truly and whole-heartedly HATE IT!!! I'm getting anxious and impatient and I want him back already!
School is going OK. I'm doing really well in my Interpersonal Relationships class, but not so well in my Learning, Memory and Cognition class. We got our tests back on Saturday and I only got an 84% on my test! Next Saturday my group has to do our presentation and I thought that it was still 2 weeks away! Ahhhh! It's times like these, when I'm stressed and things are tough, that I wish my boyfriend were around...
Over the past few days I have been missing my boyfriend a lot more than normal. We talked yesterday for a bit and I started crying, which I haven't done with him for a long time. It has just been so hard for me being away from him and in some ways I hope he knows, but in other ways I hope he doesn't know- he tends to worry about me when he knows I'm sad and missing him or when I'm sad and he can't be with me, both of which are occurring right now. I can't wait until I get to be with him again in a few weeks! But, I still absolutely HATE, HATE, HATE, that our separation is still only half over! I still have to wait until August 7th until I will get to be with him for more than a few days... IT SUCKS! Don't get me wrong, it will be so wonderful to get to see him in a few weeks, but it's only going to be for 4 days and then I have to say good bye to him again for 4 weeks! I truly and whole-heartedly HATE IT!!! I'm getting anxious and impatient and I want him back already!
School is going OK. I'm doing really well in my Interpersonal Relationships class, but not so well in my Learning, Memory and Cognition class. We got our tests back on Saturday and I only got an 84% on my test! Next Saturday my group has to do our presentation and I thought that it was still 2 weeks away! Ahhhh! It's times like these, when I'm stressed and things are tough, that I wish my boyfriend were around...
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Busy
Lately I've been more busy than usual and more than I prefer. This last week I had work and homework and a test and going to the airport (twice!) and studying and I still have to study more this weekend for a test tomorrow! I did get a bit of a break though, but I'll get to that.
So, on Monday I took my friend Shane to the airport and I picked him up yesterday, but let me start at the beginning of my day. Friday night I stayed up until about 2am doing homework and studying for my Saturday morning test in my Learning and Cognition class and I think I did pretty well, but I hadn't finished all of my homework that was due. However, my professor told me that if I could finish my homework and email it to him before our regularly scheduled class period was over that he would give me full credit. So, I had to rush home and finish my homework, which I barely sent him on time. After that I finally had my first meal of the day, then it was time to pick up Shane from the airport. After I grabbed him we went back to Camp Williams so he could drop off his stuff, then we went for a walk on the Jordan River trail, which lasted about an hour. I came home, showered, and got ready to go to my friend, Brent's party. That started out kind of awkwardly because I am a very timid/shy guy. I don't readily make friends! It is difficult for me to just walk up to people and start talking to them. Sometimes I will be a bit brave and stand near people until they acknowledge me and kind of unofficially invite me into their conversation, but that is the most I can do without almost having a nervous breakdown...
The latter half of the party I ended up getting into a conversation with a few guys and from then on I really enjoyed myself! Kyle and Nick are pretty cool guys and I enjoyed my conversation with them, a lot. The worst part of the night was that there were a lot of gay couples there and it made me really, really miss my boyfriend! There were guys grabbing and cuddling with their boyfriends and I seriously wished mine had been there too! It would have been nice to just cuddle on a couch or sit on a couch holding hands...
Gay Pride is going one this weekend and I have some friends that are going up today and I'm still thinking about going. I do have to study for a test I have tomorrow, but I think it shouldn't take too long. The main reason I am still thinking about going is because my boyfriend told me he would be busy all day and doesn't know if he'll be able to talk today, so what's the point of me just sitting around the house? I was busy all day yesterday, so we didn't get to talk and he thinks we might not get to talk tonight, so that would make a while since we talked. I do hope we get to talk today. I texted him about an hour ago and he hasn't gotten back to me yet and I have no idea where he's at. And just like magic, he texts me back :) I think I might just go to Pride today. If I go I'll make sure to post another blog about it, assuming it's blogworthy...
So, on Monday I took my friend Shane to the airport and I picked him up yesterday, but let me start at the beginning of my day. Friday night I stayed up until about 2am doing homework and studying for my Saturday morning test in my Learning and Cognition class and I think I did pretty well, but I hadn't finished all of my homework that was due. However, my professor told me that if I could finish my homework and email it to him before our regularly scheduled class period was over that he would give me full credit. So, I had to rush home and finish my homework, which I barely sent him on time. After that I finally had my first meal of the day, then it was time to pick up Shane from the airport. After I grabbed him we went back to Camp Williams so he could drop off his stuff, then we went for a walk on the Jordan River trail, which lasted about an hour. I came home, showered, and got ready to go to my friend, Brent's party. That started out kind of awkwardly because I am a very timid/shy guy. I don't readily make friends! It is difficult for me to just walk up to people and start talking to them. Sometimes I will be a bit brave and stand near people until they acknowledge me and kind of unofficially invite me into their conversation, but that is the most I can do without almost having a nervous breakdown...
The latter half of the party I ended up getting into a conversation with a few guys and from then on I really enjoyed myself! Kyle and Nick are pretty cool guys and I enjoyed my conversation with them, a lot. The worst part of the night was that there were a lot of gay couples there and it made me really, really miss my boyfriend! There were guys grabbing and cuddling with their boyfriends and I seriously wished mine had been there too! It would have been nice to just cuddle on a couch or sit on a couch holding hands...
Gay Pride is going one this weekend and I have some friends that are going up today and I'm still thinking about going. I do have to study for a test I have tomorrow, but I think it shouldn't take too long. The main reason I am still thinking about going is because my boyfriend told me he would be busy all day and doesn't know if he'll be able to talk today, so what's the point of me just sitting around the house? I was busy all day yesterday, so we didn't get to talk and he thinks we might not get to talk tonight, so that would make a while since we talked. I do hope we get to talk today. I texted him about an hour ago and he hasn't gotten back to me yet and I have no idea where he's at. And just like magic, he texts me back :) I think I might just go to Pride today. If I go I'll make sure to post another blog about it, assuming it's blogworthy...
Monday, May 31, 2010
Better? Better!
I know that I usually write my blogs on Saturday, but this weekend was a bit more busy than normal. I went hiking with my friend Shane on Saturday and Sunday, I had to take my car in to get fixed (the break lights wouldn't turn off), I had dinner with Jesse on Sunday, I talked to my baby both days too (on Saturday we talked for 4 and a half hours! It was so fantastic! And I think it really was a great experience for both of us and a real turning point in our relationship while he's been away. I think it helped us feel much closer to each other despite our separation), I had lunch with Shane after hiking on Sunday too, and, then today, I had to wake up early to take Shane to the airport (I get to pick him up next Saturday too...). So, as you can see, I had a very busy weekend. Plus, throw in homework and that is even more!
Things are getting better with me and my boyfriend as far as missing each other and being able to deal with it. Really, though, I am the one who has been having the more difficult time dealing with his absence. I just love him and miss him and want to be with him again so much that it is hard to distract myself from thoughts of him! "I see your face in every flower. Your eyes in the stars above. It's just the thought of you, the very thought of you, my love!" I hear a song and it reminds me of him. I see other couples holding hands or laughing together and it makes me wish I was with him. I just truly and absolutely yearn to be with him again! And can you blame me?! He is pretty damn cute! And cuddly and sexy and funny and all of those things that make someone desirable! I do get to see him in about a month though. I'll see him over the 4th of July weekend (I fly in June 30th and fly back out on July 5th), then I will see him again about a month after that, and then we come back to Utah and move into our new love nest the next weekend... Mmmm, sounds dreamy! I cannot wait for this summer to be over with! But, like I said, it is getting easier to be away from him. I still do have my times when I miss him so bad and I cry. However, it is not for as long as it used to be and my crying sessions are much fewer than before. So, for now, I wait and wish and pray for the time to go by quickly and then I will get to be in his warm, loving arms again :) I love you so much, baby!
Things are getting better with me and my boyfriend as far as missing each other and being able to deal with it. Really, though, I am the one who has been having the more difficult time dealing with his absence. I just love him and miss him and want to be with him again so much that it is hard to distract myself from thoughts of him! "I see your face in every flower. Your eyes in the stars above. It's just the thought of you, the very thought of you, my love!" I hear a song and it reminds me of him. I see other couples holding hands or laughing together and it makes me wish I was with him. I just truly and absolutely yearn to be with him again! And can you blame me?! He is pretty damn cute! And cuddly and sexy and funny and all of those things that make someone desirable! I do get to see him in about a month though. I'll see him over the 4th of July weekend (I fly in June 30th and fly back out on July 5th), then I will see him again about a month after that, and then we come back to Utah and move into our new love nest the next weekend... Mmmm, sounds dreamy! I cannot wait for this summer to be over with! But, like I said, it is getting easier to be away from him. I still do have my times when I miss him so bad and I cry. However, it is not for as long as it used to be and my crying sessions are much fewer than before. So, for now, I wait and wish and pray for the time to go by quickly and then I will get to be in his warm, loving arms again :) I love you so much, baby!
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Not getting any easier...but in ways it is...
So, me and my boyfriend have been having more arguments since he's been gone for the summer. Last week we had two and I think they might have both been about the same thing. The real reason we argue is because I miss him a lot (I mean, I really miss him a lot. Like, if it came down to visiting my family or him, I would definitely pick seeing him)! And I haven't figured out how to handle my aching heart yet, so I get frustrated and mad that he is gone and that I don't get to see him for so long and I am really just acting immature! But, I don't know what else to do! I don't want to be without him! I don't want to miss out on sharing all of the adventures he is having, hearing him laugh, seeing him smile, watching him sleep peacefully, waking up next to him and thinking how lucky I am to have found love and to have my love be someone who means the world to me. I miss all of that. I miss getting to hold him when he's had a bad day and having him hold me when I've had a bad day and just need to be held and comforted. I miss getting to run my fingers through his beautiful hair and kissing his neck. I miss having him give me that look when I've done something that he doesn't approve of. I miss grabbing his butt and tracing my finger along the edge of his lips and around his nose. I just miss everything about him... I miss everything that made me fall in love with him and I miss getting to tell him that I love him and seeing him smile. I miss you, honey, so very much :'(
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